So sitting here listening to Death's version of the song above I sit almost as if I was a ghost being blown in the misty breeze over a rocky setting, mayhaps a cliff that juts out above a turning, churning angry sea? Where it's huge waves splash loudly, in a chotic rythem? Hmm yes. BUT no I'm a person, not a ghost, sitting in a leather chair, not atop a dangerous hill. My heart feels as I feel and that's not saying much being when it comes down to me expressing how I Really feel well I can't say much because I like to think that I'm really not one who's feelings matter.

I mean, This morning I awake to find that a couple of days ago while I was out working for my Grandmother to pay off a huge debt that I racked up bc I was out of town helping out a great friend who's really in a bad situation atm. I mean prego, single, already has two kids and is being stalked by ex' lovers, I was up there watching her children and then here I find out that my bf thinks I'm cheating on him with not one but 13 men...ridicoulous...never even met but one guy interested in me up there...

so I was given a choice...Either I come back home (just been up there a month in a half, which the bf sent me earlier bc we we're argueing alot) When I had to either be broken up with and kicked out or I come home that night no matter what. WELL ended up coming home, not that night the Grey Hound already left for the day, the next morning though I did leave, but had no money and had it wired from my Grandmother...the debt that I'm not slaving to work off and still got along ways to go.

Just to find I've been here for only a month n a half just to be sent right back to where I was with my friend. Yesterday my bf treated me really nicely...held me and flirted I guess you could say. THEN I come online today to find a message from my ex saying he got a message from my bf now that said.

"Please take her. Please. END MESSAGE" no joke it was sent to him, by my currnet bf...

life sucks.

end...rant.